Where does time go?

I can’t even remember the last time I posted.  I’ve come to realize that if I want to start seriously blogging, I cannot go on a blogging binge for a week, and then stop.  This is serious business!  Anyway, in the months that I have been absent, MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED.  I lost two of my beloved cat companions and my heart is still broken, I have graduated college, and I received news that changed my life forever.

In late February, my mother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer.  I still can’t believe I’m typing that.  My grandparents passed away from cancer when I was a kid, but to have this news come about your mother is truly, truly different and devastating.  I’m still trying to figure out my place in her life right now, because I am not quite sure that I know how to fully help her.  How does anybody assist someone who is fighting a life-threatening illness?  Pancreatic cancer is one of the rarest forms of cancer, and because of this, the funding that goes towards finding a cure is very limited, 1% to be exact.  When I found this out I was absolutely infuriated.  Nobody should hear the words “You have pancreatic cancer” and immediately think they are going to die.

My mom is such a soldier.  She’s taken this on so well, and I cannot express how proud I am of her.  I cannot even begin to imagine how scared she is every single day, but I know that the fear is there.  It would be ridiculous not to be terrified going through something like this.

Does anybody have any experience dealing with this?  What role did you play in caring for your loved one?